Struggles of senior year

My senior year has been quite the struggle because of school obligations, sports, my mental health, and my social life.

It is difficult to balance school and mental health.

When I put more effort into one, the other seems to slip away from me.

There are good weeks when I have everything together and life is great. However, even though the highs are high, the lows are extremely low.  I often have panic attacks as I attempt to juggle school work and social life.

Recently, I tried out for the soccer team. As much as I love the exercise and my team mates, going to school until three and then going to practice until almost seven doesn’t leave much room for me to see any of my friends or boyfriend during the week. It’s a sacrifice I had to make, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t make me sad from time to time.

I believe that I should enjoy life while I am young, but I also feel as though if I don’t have my life figured out now, I won’t become successful later in life.

I don’t know what I want to go to college for and that scares me. I’ve always been the type of person that has a plan for everything. However, I haven’t figured out my life after high school and that makes me extremely nervous, worried, and overwhelmed.

For now, my plan is just to finish my high school career as strong as I possibly can and hopefully the rest will come to me in time.